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writing this blog is perhaps the only constructive thing that i can do right now because everything else since evening first it was a bottle which became a victim then it was glass which turned into atomic form , but the reason behind this uncontrollable anger is not clear i dont know why i am getting so angry at this time , no particular reason for this or may be i am not able get the reason for this high B P attitude
just another evening wasted due to this crap , all those mental blocks seem to have been activated at the same time , leaving me unable to think clearly or even rationally , not even a single piece of thought process is clear at this moment , the anger is getting into my mind and veins r burning like hell
ok lets end this blog here , i am not able to get anything that i can write here and not even sure what i have written above makes sense or not ( but i give a damn to it )

hope all gets fine by 2morrow coz i dont want to waste a holiday , but then kisi mahaaan insaan ne kahan tha umeed pe duniya tiki hain tum bhi tike raho shujat

my favourites.

guyz as usual i have nothing to write today but since i have spent few hours in making this blog so why shldn't i utilize it to fullest , so today i am going to share few of my fav shers written by me , ok u need not get pissed off , i accept edited by me.

na teri yaad jayegi
na mujhko neend aayegi..
jo do pal saath beeta tha
tabhi tak mai bhi jeeta tha..
na ab hai saans seene me
na koi lutf jeene me..
koi mujhko ye batlaye,
ki kab ye jaan jayegi????


khai thi kasam ki is kadar unko bhool jayenge,
dekh kar v andekha kar jayenge,,......
par jab samne aaya chehra unka.....
socha is baar dekh le....agli baar KASAM nibhayenge....


mat pucho dost zindagi kaise basar hoti hai
shaam yaado'n se, ashqo'n se seher hoti hai...
apni taqdeer mein hi khot ho to koi kya kare
har baar wafa ki saza gard-e-safar hoti hai...
zindagi kya hai faqat harf-e-sad-talab
har lamha yun hi khwaabo mein guzar hoti hai
gam ki badi keemat hai bikne bhi laga hai
numaish mein har cheez ki logo ko kadar hoti hai...
takalluf ko keh lo log milte hain aaj kal
warna to kahan kisko kisi ki fiqar hoti hai..
ek baar tera naam likha tha jo hatheli pe
aaj tak baatein teri-meri har ghar hoti hai..
gam-e-gardish-e-ayyam hai tere jaane ke baad
sach hai kisi ki jaane ke baad kadar hoti hai...
khairaat mein ek baar de gaya tha koi saanse
chal rahi hai abhi tak bas yun hi guzar hoti hai....!


Phir kisi yaad ne raat bhar jagaya mujhko
Kya saza di hai mere hi dil ne mujhko
din ko aaram hai na rat ko hai chain kabhi
jane kis khaak se kudrat ne banaya mujhko
dukh to yeh hai keh zamaney main mile ghair sabhi
Jo mila hai woh mila ban ke paraya mujhko
jab koi bhi na raha kandha mere rone ko
ghar ki deewaron ne seenay se lagaya mujhko
aab to umeed-e-wafa tum say nahi hai koi
phir chirago ki tarah kis ne jalaya mujhko
bewafa zindagi ne jab chor diya hai tanha
maut ne mohabbat se pehlu me bithaya mujhko
woh diya hoon jo mohabbat ne jalaya tha kabhi
gum ki andhi ne subah aur shaam bujhaya mujhko
kaise bhulun tere saath guajare lamhe
yaad aata raha teri julfon ka hi saya mujhko

ajnabi shahar ke ajnabi raaste,
meri tanhaii par muskuraate rahe
main bahoot der tak yunhi chalta raha,
tum bahoot der tak yaad ate rahe !

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as (if)you would have read my blog yesterday i told you that i would be telling you the reason for three of the most important things in my life which are anger , pessimism and atheism ,but i am extremely sorry to say that nothing of that sort is going to happen , ok i will tell you the reason , today i learned a very important lesson of my life which is that one should never help any one in reading the book of his life because this gives you few disadvantages first one being that it opens up your vulnerable side , second it helps other to make a image of you very easily and then you are judged not by your deeds but by your past , and no matter how much you have changed the other will always compare you with your earlier life

So now if i tell you the reasons why i am like this then for that i will have to open various chapters of my life and this could create problem for me and now i dont want to be a part of any problem of any sort

So , guyz please bear with it , may be something more interesting is on its way to be shared

life.

It has been quiet some time when i scribbled something here , kuch kaam ki masroofiyat , kuch waqt ki kami aur kuch shayad kuch likhne ko na hona , khair aaj jab kuch likne ko wapas socha to upar like teenon baatein ki nahi hain , ab ye nahi samjh aa rahan ki 12 may ko likne ke peeche itefaq hain ya shayad tareekh hi kuch aisi hain ki likhe bina kaam nahi chalta ( kabhi kabhi sochta hun shayad aankhon ke baad insaan ko jis cheez ki sabse jyada zaroorat hain wo likhna aana hi hain) . 12 may an important day in my life , hmmm , well i suppose it is coz it was this day that my life changed entirely and what i have become today is a lot because of this very day , life me itefaq bhi ajeeb funda hain har achchi cheez itefaq se hi hoti hain aur har kharab cheez ke peeche aapki unintentional planning hoti hain , aaj hum jo bhi hain jaise bhi uske peeche ek unintentional force hi hain

apni life ko hum do hisson me divide karte hain , pehle wo jo meri life ke sabse achche kuch mahino se pehle ka tha aur doosra wo jo un kuch mahino ke baad aaya , aur in dono part ke shujat me itna farq aa gaya hain ki shayad us shujat ko jaana ne wale agar is shujat ko jaanane walon se milke shujat ki baat kare to lagega ki do alag alag logon ki baat ho rahi hain, sach bhi hain , aur aaj ki date me ise hum apni jeet hi manate hain kyunki un kuch mahino ke baad ke baad humne ye ek conscious decisison liya tha ki ab ek nayi image ek nayi duniya aur ek naye hum , shayad apne respect me , apne emotions , apne thought process aur sabse importantly apne bare me logon ki rai kya ho ye saocha tha ab jaake kareeb kareeb usme success mili hain
log kehte hain ki abhi jo ye sab solitude achcha lag rahan hain wo aage jaake takleef dega , lekin bhai koi ye bataye ki life me aisi koi cheez nahi jo takleef na de aur waise bhi baat pachtane wali hain aur usme jab n tends to infinity hain to n+1 aur n+2 me koi farq nahi
khair shayad aaj ke liye itna kaafi hain agar kal mood hua to i will try to discuss 3 things of my life namely anger , pessimism and atheism

So till then u all have to wait and so do i .